life

my dad passed away a few months ago. he was by far one of my biggest fans. he was married to my mom for 59 years, the father of 5 kids, a faithful follower of Christ and a good employee.

to say i miss him is the understatement of the year.

you know the hard thing for me is that i was just not ready for this. i thought i was. i expected it to be very different than it is. how do you prepare for the death of someone you love and care for? how? you have months to prepare for new life that enters your family. you see your wife's body change and then one day you go to the hospital and you have a new life in your life. but with death, it just happens.

i would love to hear my dad's voice again. i would love to go the lake and ski with him just one more time. i would love to walk on a baseball field one more time and look up into the stands and see him sitting there next to my mom. i try to hear his voice and i can't. oh how i want to hear my dad call out my name.